my experience.

Harlowharlow! juz wan to tell u all wat juz happened, which i still feel quite weird on the inside. coz rite, today i happen to stay at home to check out the uni stuff. den e doorbell rang ma. somehow duno y, i had a bad feeling. but it could be the newspaperman or sth. But there was these 2 ladies whom one of them started by saying, have you wondered y there have been so many disasters, or have y ever wondered y the food prices r going up? things lidat. den i duno how to reply ma. so i juz shrug as usual. so she went on to say like den i want to refer you to the bible. so i quickly juz mentioned im also a christian. but they still ask if they can share things with me. Den they brought me to verses which mention the last days. things like nations will be against nations, kingdoms against kingdoms, n great earthquakes, which she refer to the example of the china earthquake. somehow wat i got from them was actually fear. like they din really mention much but make it seems like its really scary lor. den i was wearing new creation church shirt ma. so e other woman ask me wat the verse on my shirt says, as though testing me. but i cant really ans. den she went on to say i should read more into the bible, so i would noe if wat my church teach is really from the bible n not juz listen to ppl. sth lidat. ya lor. as in honestly inside of me was anger. i mean i do read e bible but i dun read it as much as u doesnt mean i learn less than u or have to feel bad bout it or is less loved by God. so anyway, i was really juz wondering y God brought them to me.

I donch kneow hmph

Have you ever encounted very irritating (to me) questions that was-believers have??

[was-believers: people who were in christanity, knows versus! but just, the skewed way. now doesnt believe at all OR, knew god someway but now not]

Everytime you try to tell them how awesome our God is and they have many many other things to say to prove to you that "god doesnt exist!!",or just have so many things to contradict what you say.

My problem is... sometimes i also cannot answer! and its very unsettling.

e.g. " God is made up by people." i mean, the bible Is written by people rite?.
or, somethig like.. god is the holy spirit, and since the holy spirit lives in us, god lives in us- we are god. :O soomething like that. or, "i do something bad and the bible says im forgiven, but thats the thing.. i dont want to be forgiven! i dont want to feel like im making use of God." *strangles speaker* i can dig my brain for more if u want. haha.

it seems like everyone i know at some time or another has got to know God, but has many questions abt it (which i think is perfectly normal) but then is overwhelmed by doubt and thus concludes that.. God doesnt exist.

i dunno, i think we need bible study, u know. a place to trash out all these BS and learn properly. or is it just me? like, u must be thinking now.. " cant believe u dont know!" haha.

someone pls enlighten me.

altho, i do agree as Jo reminded me " dont nd to throw pearls to the swines". we shouldnt concentrate on these ( OF COS) but its just weird that im kinda clueless.

do gimme ur 22cents worth!